So much to do & So little time
October 8th 2008
As you can see, it’s been a while since I last posted. I’ve missed blogging too, because I really do love to write and the subject matter of this Cloudy Mirror Blog is always on my mind. The excuse that I’ve been making for myself is that I just haven’t had time to do it. Then one day, while doing some tedious and not-really-necessary-task, I realized that I’ve been spending a lot of my time doing things that I really don’t enjoy. Why is that? Do I really have my priorities straight?
It’s a tad bit distressing to be asking myself this now, because I seem to remember not too long ago, that I sat down and made a list of priorities for myself where I decided what was important to me and what wasn’t. Where did I go wrong? How did I stray so far from my “Big Plan” to do things that I enjoy and to make efforts to do things just for me? What happened to make me forget the direction in which I was headed?
Well, the answer is that life happened. I got caught up in the standard day-to-day activities of my life and I began to forget about myself again. It’s so easy to do. I just always seem to have a million things going on, and for some reason, I seem to prioritize the things that I want to do for myself (paying attention to my health, reading, writing, exploring new hobbies etc.) after everything else, so I don’t really ever get to them.
First of all, because of constantly advancing technology, not only can we get more things done in a short period of time these days, but we feel that we have to jam-pack our schedules or we’re just wasting time. Our employers expect more and more productivity out of us because technology to make our jobs “easier” is being developed all the time. And simply because we are able to instantly contact people via e-mail or instant messengers, we feel guilty if we can’t find time to type a quick note and hit send. Think about it: 20 years ago, how long would it have taken us to make a transfer at the bank, buy a new winter coat, and buy groceries for dinner? Those tasks could easily have taken up half a day. Now we can do it all in minutes online. And because we can do so much so fast now, we feel that we must.
Also I have this problem, as many people do, where if certain people in my life ask or need me to do something for them, I have a very hard time telling them no… even if I don’t really want to do it. Thankfully, this group of people, for me, is relatively small but the things I end up doing for them still seem to take up a lot of time. Of course, it’s my job as a mother to do these things for my child, who is too young to do most things on her own, so I’m not complaining about that. It’s the other people to whom I give my time. Why are their wants and needs more important than mine? How can I begin to learn to say no? Continue Reading »
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