Cloudy Mirror

Ahh… the oh so common quest of trying to “find yourself”. It’s difficult, no? Who am I? Why am I here? Where are the happiness and fulfillment that seem to always be just beyond my reach? These are all questions that many of us have asked ourselves at one point or another.

Well, recently, in the midst of questioning myself and the reasons for my existence, there was a moment where I felt as if I had been violently jolted out of a dream state and I began to see the world from an amazing new perspective. It was a scary feeling because a lot of what I thought I knew about life was flying out the window, but it was also exciting because I could now see opportunities to grow and learn that I hadn’t seen before.

I’m now aware that I’ve spent the majority of my life trying to be something other than my true self, and as a result I know relatively little about who I really am. (I discuss this in more detail in my first post.) The more I read and talk about this subject with people around me, the more I realize that I’m not the only one who feels this way. I began to wonder about what it is that causes so many of us to lose sight of our true selves. In my search for answers, I’ve come to believe that part of the reason is that, in our society, we’re constantly bombarded with pictures and ideas of perfect people and ideal lifestyles. So much so, that it’s very easy to want to be these people and to have what they have without knowing why or if it really is what we want.

So, in an effort to uncover these influences and bring them to light, I’ve decided to explore them in the form of the Cloudy Mirror blog. These posts are also, in a way, a documentation of my personal journey towards learning about who I am. It is my hope that others out there might find some helpful information here but also that I might learn from other peoples’ responses to what I write. I don’t claim to be any kind of expert and I certainly don’t have all the answers. In fact, I’m probably going to get some things “wrong” here, but I’m not worried about that. What’s more important to me is that I continue to learn, both from my mistakes and from the people with whom I interact.

I recognize that I’m on an exciting journey towards learning more about the world and my unique relationship with it. Thank you so much for stopping by and sharing part of it with me!

pigi (pigi@cloudymirror.net)